Emiliano Mancilla

I don’t know if it is because of the narratives I keep consuming, no story is completely original, no idea is completely pure. As I see my life as a blockbuster, I just keep adding these “could be”s full of upsides based on the past and the present that could give the richness I want for my screenplay. 

And I have this tendency of thinking that everything’s going to stay the same, just waiting for me to take action, just waiting for my signal to give me my requested result. 

However, nothing could be farther from reality, everything just keeps moving, everything is in constant reaction, everything is at the service of random events and most of all, everyone has their own movie. 

So the screenplay changes as every minute passes, the doors close and my options vanish, nothing happens after that, just a feeling of impotence and discomfort fills my brain, the lack of script makes me want to make a toast to my perfect timing. 

Because that job position will be filled before my application touches the hands of the recruiter. 

Because she won’t want to have anything to do with me by the time I call her. 

Because the referee will blow the final whistle before I try my shot.

Because the stock will be out the money by the time I try to buy it.

Because she will be with someone else before I have the courage to go and get her. 

Because my parents will be gone before I do something significant to make them proud.

Because I will be dead before I know I was alive.